Things are on the up!

So it has been a little while since I 'blogged' and things have definately been improving. May be it is my state of mind as I have started to think more positive as negative thoughts were definately not working.

I was weighed at Slimming World 2 weeks ago and felt disappointed in myself as I was again only 2 pounds under the weight from when I started with them 10 months ago, which made me feel really low. So I got a kick up the bum that night I will tell you. I have now with my crafty head on have created my own food diary and have been filling it in, warts and all for the past week and last night I was weighed again.....I will be honest I really wasn't sure how I would do, but I knew that I had been pretty good......

I LOST 7 & A HALF POUNDS!!!!!

I was completely gobsmacked, I stepped off the scales twice as I didn't believe what I was reading on the reader! I was in complete shock as I never expected to have lost that amount in a single week!

So here I am now half a stone lighter! thinking that this is it. I have signed up to do a fitness camp starting next week, so I am looking forward to that as I am of the opinion that you can lose all the weight under the sun, but if you don't work out it won't work. So I am looking to get healthy and fit. I will post a before pic soon once I have loaded the pics onto my pc.

On another note, the home life is improving, we now make sure that we have most meals around the table which the kids are getting used to as I feel that we can talk and laugh with each other and working on the family unit is important. The boys are getting better too around the table as it is structure and consistency.

I will admit that half term has been hard work, but no where near as bad as it is has been in the past. Maybe it's because we have been talking more as a family and trying to work together on compromises.

Joe is getting there with the outbursts that he has been having as I am trying to sort things out that we can work on controlling them better after we had a huge one recently causing a lot of damage to doors in the house. He has learned from that he needs to calm down and remove himself from the situation at hand, which the outburst after the 'damaging' one was better handled.

Sam has been struggling, I am trying to support and working with him which is proving challenging. He is acting out for some reason, reasons that he will not tell us. We will get the bottom of it though. May be it is just becoming a teenager, he is probably confused about what is going on.

So I said things were looking up and they are. I have 2 interviews next week for jobs, one of them is a second interview for a contract role based locally and the other means a re-location but is a permanent role. Personally I think I would prefer the contract role as it will help us to get on top of the money situation. Any way we will just have to see what happens.

TTFN and here's to things going well for longer!

New day, new start

Well be a bit rough recently in the Maylam household......

1. Mark's been made redundant! His was the job we thought would be the secure one!
2. Joe caused £1000 damage to the house when he had an 'autistic outburst' last week
3. Tim is acting up & getting agressive
4. Panicking about mortgage payments due to Mark's redundancy
5. I AM NEARLY BACK UP TO THE SAME WEIGHT AS WHEN I STARTED SW LAST JUNE!!!!!!!

I have decided that today 9th April is going to be a new start & I am looking to focus more positive. I have decided to start doing a fitness bootcamp to try & give me a kick up the bum with regards to my fitness. I don't want to go to Zoe's wedding in June looking like a ten ton heffer! (that's how I am feeling at the min). Things have been sooo stressful over the past few months that I have forgotten to look after myself as I have been concerntrating on everyone else, forgetting that I should look after myself first. I heard a quote recently on Oprah 'if you were on a plane & the oxygen masks came down, would you do your's first or everyone elses?'

I am no good to the kids if I am not healthy & fit so here is to a new focused me! (I hope)