So here we are halfway through the year already! How scary!
So for the first time I have been struggling really badly with life! my grasp on reality seemed to have escaped me recently and things got too much. I ran away! at my age! well not really ran away but escaped to Devon as I couldn't face anything. Things were just too much.
I don't like the feeling of loss of control as it means that the family mechanics break down.....it seems that I have to 'keep it together' so that Mark doesn't fall apart! How unfair is that! I can't breakdown without consequence!
I gave some home truths when I got back, some I wasn't planning to do, but in anger and frustration they just came out. So now I feel a bit more relieved as I wasn't planning to blurt out what I did, but hey it needed to be said so now I am feeling better.
So here is the plan......
1. Move out the house and sell
2. Seek therapy!
3. Structure and routine to the household
4. Major de-clutter (sell stuff, donate stuff, bin stuff)
5. Fix broken doors
6. HAVE A HOLIDAY!
Well the last one is going to be needed after everything!
So here is my thought.....
Don't let life get you down, don't let the things in your head build up so that it gets too much. Always share what is going on otherwise you will struggle more in the long run
Think positive even when life is getting too much, all these things are meant to happen so that we can learn and grow from them
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wow, i had no idea. im so sorry that you were struggling, and i wish there was something i can do!
ReplyDeletedecluttering your life is the best thing you can do! That is exactly why we moved into a smaller place. we got rid of so much stuff, and some we have left will be going too! Now, my crafting will suffer a lil in the process (which to me IS therapy!) but I will adjust and learn to like myself more and accept the situation. Having less stuff is awesome.
When I would go home to the old house, I would mentally take into acount of everything in the room, we had no real organization so it was everywhere, and it weighed me down on my shoulders. I carried around all the physical belongings everywhere i went. I am trying not to do that anymore, and if I feel its happening again i will declutter again! its so invigorating while at the same time it was a shock at first
one tip i can give, is seperate yourself from your stuff. Dont look at things as sentimental. Something your child played with isnt the memory you want to keep, its the memory of him being happy and learning that you want to keep. so get rid of the extra toys. you would be surprised to see how much they dont mind!
I had so much stuff of my son jacksons toys clothes etc, that i was awwing over everything like he played with it so it has to be important. NOT. i kept some of the really cute stuff or the stuff he LOVED but got rid of the rest. let them make some other kid happy for awhile. that was a big help. and I gave it all away for free. mostly because we had to move fast and didnt have time ( or mental ability) to have a sale and get some money for it. which worked out for us. but if you have the time, get some money back for all your efforts.
good luck in your future you! and you dont have to keep it together for others, its for your own sanity! get out once and awhile and live some life for yourself. you deserve it!